今天晚上，细雨纷纷，感觉出人意外的平静。。这就是我最喜欢圣诞节的原因。不过，刚刚的赞美节目只是还好而已，也许是在外头举行吧，如果在教堂举行，气氛应该会比较好，比较有圣诞节的Feel。今年的圣诞，很普通，没礼物。。人越大越不注重节日了，算了吧，我早就该知道，圣诞节有礼物是来哄小孩子的。
前几天，我参加了一个婚礼，突然很想为我自己设计一个浪漫，甜蜜的婚宴。哈哈。。又想结婚了，但只是憧憬结婚当天，对于结婚后的日子还是有点恐惧。看到我表妹们，一个个有了男友时，发现我真的不年轻了。她们谈起男友时幸福的模样，我也替感到开心，希望她们的另一半会好好珍惜她们。而我的另一半，应该也会珍惜我吧?!哈哈。。
我的身体真的好虚弱。那天公共假期，爸爸带我们和叔叔一家去爬山。其实只是走楼梯上的，但山很斜，楼梯也滑，真的爬到上气不接下气，我还爬到晕倒了。好笑吧?!这么大只的一个人，就这么容易晕倒，真的不可思议。也许是平时我没运动的关系吧~~真的很差劲!
明天就是圣诞节了。。各位，圣诞节快乐!晚安~~
1 word to describe my life now…BORING! I don’t know what can i do to make my holiday life more interesting now. Except drama, still drama-ing. Except lying on my bed, still lying on it. Aihz. Actually i got things to study, i brought my japanese course book back, but when i turn to it, i just don’t have the mood to study it. Maybe i should bring back programming book. haha. Every night around 10 i will online, to see who got the time to chat with me. But also have to see my mood, maybe that night i no mood to chat. I realised i quite easy to be moody when always stayed at home. I miss KL now. Especially end of the year. Know why i miss KL so much? Cause i won’t stuck myself at home 24 hours. Every holiday, the day i like most is Saturday and Sunday. These 2 days my parents are not working and will bring us go out. so happy when meets sat or sun. ^^ Drama drama, now is time to drama again….arggggg~~
Close your eyes for 5 minutes. Imagine the weather now is extremely cold outside, but in your house there is a warm fire burning the roaster. In your living room, there is a huge christmas tree hanging lots of colourful decoration, a soft music can be heard singing white christmas and santa clause is coming to town. Under the tree will be a few presents that is for you and your brother or sisters. Outside your house there is a snowman standing beside your door smiling at you. How wonderful it is?! I always love this day to come, but without cold weather and roaster, i still love this day. I love christmas songs, i love presents from friends. so peaceful when singing those christmas song, dont u think so? Anyway,looking forward on the day to come and hope for surprising things to happen.^^ Merry Christmas everyone..i love you all. May god bless you.
Something happened last night,to me and someone important to me.Now think back,i wonder where did i get the courage to do such things.From me?or from somebody else that helped to advise me?He scolded me,he said.."why you have to listen to everyone…", he said.."everyone is different…", he said.."I want gf that give me space…". I got nothing to say,do you know why?Because i really am controlling him. The only same thing that we all think is we both think that we had do enough for each other. Love one person, is not depends on how much we had done for him/her. If really love one person, we must use whole life to treat her/him good. Its too late to realise all these things now. I damn angry, angry myself to be so selfish. I damn regret, regret every words that came out from my mind last night. Why i have to do things to make my relationship unstable? I admit, i m scare of my own future, say the truth…i scare of wedding now. but i didnt tell him all these, no people will understand me for these, because i m still small to think all these things. I wonder next time when i married, will i laugh at myself for all those foolish thinking? I do hope i will, because if i got the chance to do so, means how blissful i am at that time. I m so disappointed to myself.Adeline,why on earth you have to be so greedy? Why on earth you cant happy with what you have now? I always blame him for doing not good enough..and i always thought i had done so well for his sake. But what i done, is not what he want actually. He just want some space, i asked myself.."can i did that for him?" The answer is.."I cant..if not i will give up." The feeling of scare still exist in my heart now. I can’t get any comfort from him, i scare he will think i am those greedy person. Will he love me as usual? or he will forever think that i am so selfish~?! I dont know, and i dont want to know. I scare i will disappoint with the answer i got. My times now really hard to spend. Except drama and online, i can only look at the phone see when will he reply my message. Got many times, i pick up the phone, but remember he said dont like people blow him reply message, so i just put the phone down. Till now i am still waiting, i miss his voice that say "good night dear..muaks muaks muaks" I miss his " i love you" i miss his voice saying "can i speak to leng lui plz?" i miss his hug, miss his laugh.. miss him…i also cant explain why, only beside him, with him around, i will feel full of safety. I told him before, but when i ask back myself WHY, i also cant explained why. Maybe love is full of unreasonable things, like me…i am same with love…….unreasonable. SOrry.
Hi everyone,finally i m back to my own house.^^v curious about where i m these few days??At 1st i went to Sandakan..and i really ate alot of seafood there.I guess i had gained quite alot of weights at there.We went to sepilok,crocodile farm,temple..and lots of eating places.Oh,the most important thing,i met my bi’s parents.haha,at 1st quite scared i cant get along well with them,but i think i passed rite?My bi became driver when i reached there.I really enjoyed my time there.
2nd,i went to KK while waiting for my flight to Kuching.My fren came to fetch me.At 1st i tot i just have to be there for 7 hours,who knows my flight delayed.I had waited 9 hours there.But thanks to my frens tat accompanied me tat day.When i back home,i was really exhausted.I promised i wont wan to take transit flight again.Haha..not with my heavy luggages.
Back home havent reached 8 hours,early in the morning of the next day at 6am,my papa drove us to travel sarawak.Stay 1 nite at my aunt house near Sarikei,3 nites at Miri (my uncle house),1 nite at Sibu,another nite at my aunt house again then back to my home sweet home.We took lots of pictures during tat journey.Now then i know maxis line is so good at Sarawak.Even "kampung" place also got more than half line.haha..We spent lots of time eating fruits while we traveled.Sarikei–well-known of pineapples.Bintangor–well-known of orange (not the orange 1,is the green 1) ^0^.As i remember,every places got its own symbols.Miri–seahorse,Sibu–swans,bintangor–orange,Sarikei–pineapples,tatau–rabbit,sri aman–白鸽,and of course,Kuching–CAT.Haha.
I miss my bi alot now…but i m glad that he always phone me.Hope that 1 month time pass faster.I m looking forward for christmas day to come.Happy 3 years and 4 months anniversary to my bi~~muaks.
