Archive for September, 2007

25
Sep

中秋节

昨天,月亮高挂在上空。原本以为会下雨的,结果还是没下,而且为我们每个人留下美好的回忆,尤其是我—因为我有个受伤的回忆!哈哈!虽然受了伤,但我没生气,也没伤心,心里还是很开心,加上看到每个人为我担心的样子,心里更是暖暖的。这里每个人,有的已经很累了;有的隔天还有考试;在庆祝之前,每个人都无精打采,我还以为。。。这次的庆祝就可能草草了事了。但是当我们看到在外头点起一盏盏的小灯光时,我们便开始有了中秋节的感觉。我们一堆人,玩游戏。。甚至还参与别堆的朋友一起玩,大家都是要庆祝中秋节的嘛!哈哈!

像这样传统的日子,虽然我们有的根本都不懂日子的来源,但我们出来读书,仍然记得有这么一个日子,真的很难得。昨天真的。。。玩疯了。现在我真在“享受”玩疯后的结果。。洗个澡都好辛苦哦~~不过,弄我跌倒的人,不要在责怪自己,并不是你的错!^.^v 哈哈,他还送我一粒气球,表示歉意。真的很好笑~~!好吧,祝大家,中秋节快乐!

Ade_1 这就是证据!!哈哈~~可爱吧,我不是说我啦,是说那个道歉的人。^0^v

Ade1 玩输了对不对?那就罚你们两个接吻吧!!有人脸好红哦~~哈哈!!

22
Sep

一个像夏天一个像秋天

你们应该都听过这首歌吧。这首歌是第二首歌,歌词让我非常有深刻印象的,让我一听,就陶醉在其中的歌。这首歌是在讲述一个好友,非常体谅,非常了解自己,什么时候需要她,什么时候不需要。就算是自己常常忽略她,但有事情找回她时,她还是站在自己的这一边。世界上,真的有这么一个朋友吗?

常常听到的是,朋友有了异性就没有了朋友。其实,这真的是不能拿来做比较的。很少人,也许可以说是百分之十都没有,是能够做到朋友与情人兼顾的。(我是说那些男女朋友每天都在一起的)如果有,我真的很想听听你们的意见,到底是如何做到的。为什么会这样呢?为什么就是没有人能像那首歌一样,就算我有了情人,有事情时,我还能找到某些人诉苦呢?!认真的想想,我是有这么一个朋友的。但也许我们的距离太远,很多事情都很难让她知道,而且这么远的距离,也许还没让她感觉到我是重色轻友吧!

真的有时候,尤其是和男友发生不愉快时,我真的真的找不到同性朋友诉苦。所以我的异性朋友比较多,可能是因为我读的科系很少女生吧!我也有很要好的男生朋友,就以前,非常信任他,什么事情都告诉他,就以为他很了解我了。。但原来不是的,他还是站出来反我的,甚至背叛对我的诺言。男生,是不是每个都看心情帮什么样的女生啊?今天,我看她穿美一点,那我就帮她,是不是这样?!还好,当有事发生时,我还是有朋友愿意站在我这边。。也许让我看清楚事情的真相也不赖嘛。真的很谢谢那些相信我的朋友,在我很无助,很难过时,帮我度过一切。

我每天往两个家跑,两个不同的家让我感受到不同的气氛。在我自己的家,那是一个学生宿舍,每个人都躲在自己的房里,客厅除了考试期间是没有人会呆在那的。在另一间家,或许有人会说因为有男友在吧,我在这感受到家里的气氛。伤心难过时,有人会安慰我;开心时,有人会替自己开心;考试之前,有人会替自己加油;考试以后,考不好–有人会安抚我的心情,考得好–有人会笑着向我说“今晚这餐是你的!”。这一切,都不是我男友做的事,而是住在他家里的每一个人做的。比较起来,你们会选择哪一个家呢?

哈哈。。写了那么多,才发觉到很多东西都是一个像夏天,一个像冬天。往往有了比较,才知道另外一方的不足。我,能做什么?只能够继续活着,继续做个不要令爸爸妈妈失望的小孩。

21
Sep

My Friend

aI have lots of friends, but which 1 will understand the things i wanna express? The answer is NOT no, but NOT many also. Luckily, i have my bf beside, my friends that support me. I duno what did i do today, until everyone blame me. Exam ended suppose to be a very happy day for me, but i sick…i nearly fainted at school juz now…but who cares me? I kinda disappointed to sumone, early mention that i cant join them for the activity after exam because i m sick, but no defency for me…what kind of friend is tis? And yet said tat tat person is very moody because of us. Because i din go? Or because i make them cant go? I think i wont make any big differences for them…because no ppl value my attendance oso. Another friend, who known as my friend indeed last time, but he also treat me like tat…no caring and no friend’s warming concern from them..no ppl asked bout my sickness.  Only blame me for blaming other ppl. ya ya…everything my fault…everything my wrong. But lastly know his explanation..he duno everything that happened between us. Aihzz..

How to define friend? I really duno~~~I just hope no forcing for me..no blaming and if u wan…no caring for me also can. That’s all.

14
Sep

The moment that i wanna leave

Everything not going on well on me. I admit that this semester’s exam i didnt put much effort in like last semester. Maybe that’s why the two exams that i had few days ago were like shit! I m sorry to myself, sorry to my parents again. I cant get 3.0 again this semester..but just hope my cgpa wont drop.T.T why m i so useless??the gal that had full confident last semester had gone…I m scared, the subjects become more and more tough. Everyone is waiting for my graduation (with flying colours results), but i scared, because i know i will let them down. Besides, many negative things suddenly occured around me. I got many complaints and moody stuffs…Many things let me feel moody and tired…just hope that all these things will leave me alone and let me study for the rest of the subjects. The moment i wanna leave is the moment i obtained stress.

BUT, i still glad that i got people to talk to…still got friends supporting me while i am stressing. At least, the moment i wanna leave, i got friends and lover beside to accompany me. Maybe, i should define "the moment i leave" == i m walking and passing through the "moment" now. Leave == walk_through? Its depends on how u define. Good Luck for my next 3 subjects…ganbatte adel____!

10
Sep

现实总是那么残忍

每当我们以为事情是这样发生的,偏偏让我们看到事情发生的另外一端;答应别人的东西,为何就是那么难做到呢?还以为我是被你唯一重视的,原来不是我想象中那么幸福。

考试到了,让我看到各种不同的求教方法。有些人,不耻下问,但却招来冷讽熱嘲;有些人,不明白也不问,完全靠自己,好固执哦!;有些人,想问人却不被人讨好,没人想教他;有些人,为了向别人求教,任他严厉的痛骂,也继续向他求教;更有些人,向别人求教从不虚心,还以付自以为是的样子。。。以上那么多钟,你是哪一种呢?

我没那么幸福,也许可以说是固执吧,我从不向人求教,但我的观点是错的,因为我得了解能力总有限,应该让别人的知识进入脑中吧!也许还没找到一个让我舒服求教的人吧!但考试来临了,有多少时间让我继续等待呢?!

我的安全感日渐减少,为的是什么?谢谢我的一位朋友,他总是在我悲伤中欢笑,让我觉得有他。。真好!我常被人取笑,但我都不介意,我最在意的还是你的眼光,只要你取笑我,我的心就很痛很痛。有谁能了解,一个每时每刻都被嘲笑的人呢?!只有他,常赞美我,他还教我怎样对自己有信心。。。真的好感动!

我不管了。。再也不想在乎谁谁谁的感受,真的很累。。每天要迁就不同的人,有谁能做到这点?!我不怕没朋友,只怕我心爱的人都不了解我。。。。

考试,为何我没压力了呢?难道我这次又要草率的过?我不要。。我要进步。。我会努力的!!

07
Sep

一个不可告人的秘密

最近我发现我自己有很多秘密,都是一些不可被人知道的秘密。我有很多想法,但很难表达,为什么呢?做人做到那么辛苦干什么?我也不知道!我很向往有一个人的空间,一个非常私人的空间。。当然,不可以包括我亲爱的可飞,他和我可以说是形影不离了。哈哈,很肉麻吧!继续我的向往吧。。一个我放学回去,温暖的小窝。。放着我很多可爱的娃娃。。一张舒服的椅子。。和一张暖暖的床。多美好的大学生涯!!老公不在时,可以找住在我四周的朋友一起吃饭,聊天,喝茶。。但梦想毕竟是梦想。。很多事情是不如我所愿的。继续,有一张大大的书桌,让我能为将来奋斗;有一个私人的厕所,让我想洗澡就洗澡,想大号就大号,想小号就小号。。哈哈。。很废吧!!知心的朋友,因该知道我想表达些什么吧。。如果你不知道,那你就不是我的知心朋友咯!!

其实我是读书读到发傻了。。

可悲吧!!

老公却在努力的赚钱。。

好可怜哦!!

02
Sep

Something that go through my mind

Em..i just viewed some of my friends profiles, and i really envy their uni life. They are so active, active to join those competition, or club, or whatever activities. I used to be so active, but i always blamed my papa for transfering my secondary school here and there till i cant have any "name" in one school. But my primary school, yes..i m well-known. Whenever talked about story telling, or debate, i was always be the 1 that chosed to participate. I never regret…cause i enjoyed it so much. I remember my last competition..it was during my form 5. I quite fed up when i know the teacher was actually looking down to us.(my friend and i). I still remember, i told myself to perform as good as i can to let the teacher regret. It was inter-school competition. ^.^v but..i lost. I only managed to get consolation price.But still, it was a surprised for that teacher. Haha..i still happy i managed to get a price during my last competition. Now at uni, i am so useless. Cant even participate in the competition like during secondary school. Well, maybe i will have chances soon. haha..i m still waiting.

Oh dear, i wanna eat mooncake so much…especially those with green tea and "bing pi"~~~yum yum…deliciouss!!